CEMENTED IN AN ILLUSION

For being such a confident person,
I have a splash of insecurity too.
I really dislike its flare ups.
The land is cultivated.
A seed is pitched,
and it sprouts,
becoming its own separate entity.
Turning on its matriarch,
seizing total domination.
Playing me like a puppeteer!

Yesterday’s fears
haunt today.
Events which would otherwise
go unnoticed,
get magnified and distorted,
as if I’m looking through
a Funhouse mirror.

They compound
and gather momentum.
A runaway horse
trampling through my mind
and crushing my heart.
Tangled up in a labyrinth,
with no way out.
Cemented in an illusion
of my own creation.

How does one reconcile
thoughts twisted
in your own mind,
especially when your sounding board
has knotted circuit breakers?

How do you release yourself
from your own conjuring?

When your measuring tool
is what’s contorted,
how do you escape Mr. Houdini?

Unravel each crumpled thought,
one by one,
like the rubber bands
encased in a golf ball.
Fling them away.
Choose a mantra.
Sing your praises
in surround sound.
Mute self-doubt.

Breathe in Love!
Breathe out Gratitude!
Repeat.

Let go.
Let live.
Be free.
Fly!

Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed., C.H.C
June 2, 2015
Poem #397

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Dancing Her Jig

I don’t know which
surprises me more:
who I was
or
who I’ve become.

The Nancy of Today
has always been with me.
She has sat center stage
with my psyche.
She has also enjoyed
playing a masterful game
of hide-and-seek.

She has skipped,
frolicked,
and darted
throughout my yesteryears.
While she hadn’t fully
introduced herself yet,
unbeknownst to me,
her role was far more significant
than an Alfred Hitchcock
cameo appearance.
The shadow
of her fingerprints
are distinct
when viewing reels
of home movies.

A grand entrance
was never her style.
She infiltrated gradually,
almost indistinguishably,
leisurely taking the reins
to run the show.
Once she shimmied
into the pilot seat,
I was dancing
her jig with glee!

Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed., C.H.C
Poem #387
May 30, 2014

Celebrate Every Day!

With my next birthday being around the corner, last night a friend asked how I feel about getting closer to 50 (mind you, I’m still a few years off). A fair question, especially with her being in her early 30s. Here’s what I said. I’ve always been amazed with how fast time travels, but age has never bothered me. Even with my already positive attitude about aging, having had cancer is a game changer. Growing older is better than the alternative! I’m just happy to be alive! Let’s celebrate every day!

Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed., C.H.C.

Walk With Me!

During the most difficult times in my journey away from breast cancer, walking on the Trinity Trails was my saving grace. On those walks, I traveled through the complete spectrum of emotions. I cried. I made the most difficult, life-altering decisions. Undeniable realizations were brought onto my path, and walked by my side, until I could face them. I was literally brought to my knees on those trails. I felt a more powerful inner strength radiating from my chest than I have ever felt before!

Walking is therapeutic, especially in nature. It is good for the body, heart, and soul! Take my hand and walk with me!

Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed., C.H.C

 

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Behind The Scenes Magic

Enter Day 5. Glad you are here!

Mr. Sandman is still pretty elusive. He comes in for awhile, hangs out, and plays. Until Ms. Discomfort comes in and shoos him away. She is a bully, and he is somewhat of a wimp. Mr. Sandman just won’t stand up to her!

I saw Dr. Hodges yesterday. I must say, having Tegaderm (waterproof bandages) ripped off of The Girls was not a pleasant experience!! “I was stuck on Tegaderm, and Tegaderm was stuck on me!!” Ouch!!

Dr. Hodges was pleased with my current healing. He wants me to continue the current protocol: staying home bound. I have the same restrictions: no lifting more than five pounds, no reaching higher than my head, and no driving. I have to sleep on my back, with both arms elevated, wearing a post surgical bra (hence the cat and mouse play of Mr. Sandman and Ms. Discomfort)!

I cannot walk outside yet. Dr. Hodges does not want my heart rate up. He also does not want the sun to hit the massive bruises/swelling on my thighs caused from transplanting fat cells for the sake of The Girls. Liposuction is not for the weak! For “exercise,” I get to walk from room to room in our home! Woo-Hoo!

The very best part of the visit was getting the drains removed!! Yay!! They are so uncomfortable! While it’s not fun getting them removed, it’s totally worth it for them to be gone!!

As most if us know, after any surgery, our bodies are filled with residual chemicals/toxins from the anesthesia. Additionally, our bodies have increased inflammation. I have been using food to get rid of the nasty residue and reduce the inflammation. Some of the foods which are helpful to my cause are as follows: onions, garlic, ginger, turmeric, artichokes, parsley, kale, red cabbage, celery, beets, dandelion greens, my daily bee pollen, black and cayenne pepper, lemon water, limes, olive oil, coconut oil, rose green tea, soluble fiber powder (absorbs toxins), and organic berries.

I was also given several rounds of antibiotics. We did not want to take the chance of any infection invading my body again. We got rid of those squatters once, and they were not welcome back!! While antibiotics certainly serve a purpose, they also have a negative side effect of removing probiotics from our guts. Probiotics are critical for good health. Instead of taking a supplements to get my gut balanced again, I am using…yes, you guessed it…food, food, glorious food! Fermented foods are fabulous for increasing probiotics. My fermented foods of choice are fresh sauerkraut and kombucha tea.

Lots of work to do today! While on the outside, it appears like I’m doing nothing, as I sit on the couch all day; behind the scenes – 24/7 – my body is working hard at healing! Don’t pay attention to the women behind the curtain! She’s working her magic! Bring on the continued healing Day 5!

Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed., C.H.C.

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The Body’s Magnificence!

As I enter Day 4 post-surgery, I am once again amazed at the body’s ability to heal. Everyday, simple tasks (that we all take for granted) were impossible for me to accomplish on Day 1. Yet on Day 2, with effort, some of those tasks became attainable. Every few hours, I can feel and see a difference in my mobility.

My pain has now subsided to discomfort. (Of course, with healing, comes the incessant itching that cannot be scratched!! Ugh!!) Never did I think I would be where I am in the healing cycle at this stage! I am WOWED by the magnificence of the body!

My agenda for the day: Heal, Baby, Heal! I also have a field trip planned. Off to Dr. Hodges, I go! Big thanks to Sam for offering to be my driver. I am hoping the drains will be removed!

Today is a beautiful day for healing!

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