Peace. Light. Love

Four years ago, my life changed more than I thought possible. Today is a day to celebrate! 
PEACE. LIGHT. LOVE.
Tick Tock. Tick Tock.

Tick Tock. Tick Tock.

When we were young, 

we hardly heard it.

We almost denied 

the clock’s existence. 
If you’ve ever had a face-off,

a locked stare down,

with a demon,

the volume gets turned up.

The ticking 

becomes deafening.

Louder than 

you thought possible. 

Incessant.
No one knows 

when their clock 

silences.

We all try to see

the future.

Science sometimes 

gives us a crystal ball –

a forever fluid,

ever-changing,

slice of time.

Is it the right one? 

Do we stare into it,

or do we give it a hard drop kick? 

When is enough? 
The warrior inside of me

is brave and courageous. 

Standing next to her 

is a little girl 

who wants to hide

under the covers.

Side-by-side,

hand-in-hand,

they navigate 

my climb 

over the mountains,

my walk 

through the forest.
SURVIVE.

CONQUER.

THRIVE!

Treatment.

Lifestyle changes.

Pulling myself

out of the quicksand muck.

Stepping back into my life.
The clock fades

into the background. 

While it can still be heard,

I am able concentrate 

on other pursuits. 
The five year mark

looming in the distance.

Simultaneously,

it is

exciting

and

scary.

Cheering.

Screaming.

Celebrating.

Crying.

All occupying the same space.

Living in a parallel moment.

Sharing an identical voice.

In the same breath.

Together.

As one.
Getting TO this race ribbon

is not the finish line.

Getting BEYOND it is.

The years 

in the rearview mirror

are the sought-after 

guideposts. 
I am not 

out of the woods.

I never will be.

The demon’s dark shadow

is always lurking.

The woods 

have become my home.

I have no other option.
The trees 

have become 

my friends.

Sheltering me 

from the high winds.

Giving me shade 

when the sun’s 

burning my skin.

Opening to the sky

when I need warmth.

Rustling leaves

humming a sweet lullaby.
I am poised 

with them.

Our roots 

are intertwining.
My trail is winding.

Crisscrossing. 

I skip. Meander. Hike. Crawl. Climb. Soar.

The saplings

dance with me

along the way.
Every day counts.

Every moment matters. 

Here. 

Now.

I am Happy. Healthy. Strong.

I am Peace. Light. Love.

That’s all I know.

It’s all I need to know. 
Breathe.

          Be.

Smile.

          Here.

Move forward.

          Now.

Rejoice.
Nancy L. Baskin Michlin

December 1 – 7, 2015

Poem #402

Dedicated: BCI Test 

Year 4