Then & Now

Preface
Three years ago, at this time, on this day, I had no idea what was in store, what the day would hold. I had no idea that the events of the day to come would change my life forevermore. I had no idea. Now I know.
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“I am certain your test results will come back positive for cancer.” I heard those words three years ago today, as I was getting prepped for a needle biopsy. Those twelve words are forever etched in my memory. They rocked my world and changed my life forevermore. The moment they hit the airwaves, my world came crashing in, suffocating my every breath. A cloak of darkness enveloped my very being.

As I look upon that moment three years later, it is like looking through a telescope backwards. So much has happened between Then and Now. The hourglass was stretched beyond its physical dimensions. The enormous milestone somehow looks smaller in the rear view mirror, yet that line drawn in the sand forever changed me. While getting diagnosed is the scariest thing you’ll ever go through, it is a gift. You’re given the opportunity to fight, triumph, and flourish! The words, which felt like daggers cutting through my very core, were actually angels flying in to save my life!
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Epilogue
Telling your loved ones you’ve been diagnosed with cancer is heart wrenching.
Proclaiming to the world that you are a cancer SURVIVOR is empowering!

Here is a link to the poem I wrote about this point in my pilgrimage.

https://www.facebook.com/notes/back-to-health-4-life-nancy-michlin-health-coachmotivatorauthor/breathe-smile-move-forward/741570309259129

Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed, C.H.C.

Breathe. Smile. Move Forward.

Breathe. Smile. Move Forward.

Fear.
Joy.
Anxiety.
Relief.
All occupying the same space.
Living in a parallel moment.
Sharing an identical voice.

The farther away from
the line drawn
on my calendar pages,
the better!

The five year mark
looming in the distance.
Simultaneously,
it is
exciting
and
scary.
Cheering.
Screaming.
Celebrating.
Crying.
All in the same breath.
Together.
As one.

Getting TO this race ribbon
is not the finish line.
Getting BEYOND it is.
The years
in the rearview mirror
are the sought-after
guideposts.

Tethering my thoughts.
Harnessing them by my side.
Keeping them on one track.
Focus.
Moving the needle
when the record skips.
Redirecting
the runaway thoughts.
Resetting the loop.

I. Will. Survive.
I. Will. Conquer.
I. Will. Thrive.

Breathe.
BE.
Smile.
HERE.
Move forward.
NOW.
Rejoice.

Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed., C.H.C.
December 5-10, 2014
Dedicated: Year 3 (12/16/2014)
Poem #391