My next surgery is one month from yesterday away. I am getting nervous, anxious. It has been almost a year since my last major surgery. I am enjoying full mobility and having my life back. I am tired of “doing it once again.” I am concerned about the possible consequences the stress of surgeries puts on my body, especially when this one is all about cosmetics. My number one goal is to keep me cancer-free!
Last year, Lexi and Rylee (the girls) were left unfinished. We felt the best strategy was to give my body the time to heal before we put the final touches on them. Now, almost a year later, I wonder if I should just leave them unfinished. No, I am not happy with the current results. Yet, my health is my driving force.
As long as I get my full mobility back, I know I can work through the recovery. Been there. Done that. Multiple times. I will consult with my surgeon to ensure he knows that my end goal is full mobility over vanity.
My biggest concern is that I know surgeries stimulate cancer cells and decrease the immune system. Not a good combination to have simultaneously. I train for surgery to get my body in tip-top shape and combat that those effects as much as possible. But is the surgery worth the possible risk?
My dear, sweet husband assured me last night when I was expressing these fears to him that he will stand behind me no matter what choice I make. He just wants me to be healthy. He bolded and underlined that he has blinders on and thinks I am the most beautiful woman in the world, no matter what! I am so blessed to have his love and adoration.
I wish I had a crystal ball showing the outcome of both sides. “Mirror, mirror, on the wall, what’s the wisest choice of them all?”
Nancy L. Baskin Michlin, M.Ed., C.H.C.